My instant karmic “Aha” moment is still as vivid, clear and panoramic now as it was 20 years ago. This life-changing event, a huge cosmic 2×4, was my karmic metamorphosis from “the old me” to the “new me”.. Karma can be explained by the natural universal laws of the Universe that apply to everyone. It is the law cause-and-effect. As the Bible says, “What ye sow, that also shall you reap.” Usually refers to carried over experiences. Somewhat life receiving just reward (positive or negative).
It was 7:00 a.m. Dec 4, 1984. I was on my way to my yuky job as usual. I was stuck, once again, in traffic. Frustrated , I realized I was stuck in life-period!! As I was wallowing in negative thought, filling up with self-pity , my victumhood martyr persona took over. Feeling lost, alone, and doubtful, I realized I was frozen with fear in all areas and all relationships in my life. Isolation and emptiness kept me stuck in patterns of indecision and desperation. Feeling the irony of my “stuckness”, I tried to review my choices. Stay stuck behind the jerk in front of me. Maneuver around the slow poke beside me risking a fender-bender. Cut in front of the “man with an attitude” beside me and speed away. Or ignore all the jerks on the highway, turn left and get the heck out of there, which would put me way out of my way and late…again!! Clearly, my life and my relationships were showing up for me again in unpleasant, difficult and unacceptable choices. None of the choices appeared to be good or even fairly okay.
Then, as if the heavens open up and replied to me, I was struck from above and from behind all at once! Inspiration from above, in the realization that the traffic situation was a mimic of my life’s choices-the message was “MAKE BETTER CHOICES”! Collision from behind, as I was rear-ended by a very large pick-up truck. The message was “CHOOSE SOMETHING OR IT WILL BE CHOSEN FOR YOU ”!
Yes, life does give us karmic collisions. A constant barrage of choices, moment by moment decisions shape our lives and our relationships. My karmic patterns had taught me to stay stuck or be forced into making decisions. My “aha” car collision/inspiration moment jolted me into a new reality. Even though it was a reality of desperation at the time, it did, indeed, turn my old karmic patterns around into new patterns which enhanced my life. The aftermath of my combination cosmic inspiration/car collision gave me plenty of opportunities. Not only did I have car damage but I also had body damage. Dealing with the car repairs and insurance companies showed me how new choices created good relationships in order to be in my best interest. Definitely karmic clean-up for me and mechanics and insurance companies. At the same time, doctors and medical treatments gave me opportunities for new choices to create better relationships of understanding with the medical community. More karma clearing.
My new healthy karmic patterns allowed me to I first learn how to create healthy relationships with strangers and difficulties instead of family and friends. Through the ensuing months, I was constantly being given new situations to make new choices which resulted in new results.
Finally, I got it! I can change my life by changing my choices which created happy relationships. My karmic bondage had finally been broken.
By being aware of my choices and my old negative karmic patterns, I was able to leave behind old karmic patterns of relationships which no longer fit me or my perspective.
By looking at the picture the Universe gave me, searching for my karmic lessons, be willing to create positive choices, I released the old me. I was able to learn how to shift my entire my life around towards one of joy and happiness .
Releasing our old karmic relationship attitudes makes way for new and beneficial, loving relationships.
We can find joy and compassion in our everyday experiences. When we are aware of each and every “picture” we are given in our daily lives, we see the lesson. We open the pathway for new and better karmic relationships.